Meh

High School to me.

Looking back, I cant believe what I’ve been through.

Freshman year, I thought I had it all figured out, and just knew what would happen in the next 4 years…
That didnt happen.
I joined football because I thought it would be exciting and fun and I would stay fit.
Don’t get me wrong, it was all that and more. It changed my character and how I go about my life. But it also made me realize some of my fears. Being skinny and even lanky, I did fear getting hit by guys 2-3 times my size, and tackling them…HA.
But then I had no choice but to face it, and you know what, it wasnt bad. You just get back up and keep going. You cant fear failure, as I did. I was intimidated by the thought of missing the ball, and all that did was hurt me. I sucked, and I blame myself in the way I approached playing the game. Yet, in the end, I was getting comfortable with this new sport and that made a huge difference to follow.
However, that year I also saw my class rank…
There was also my first girlfriend. Hell, I had NO idea what I was doing. But I definitely learned along the way and it carried into the next year.

Sophomore year, football became a higlight of my life, starting my morning in the field house before entering the school to learn made my days go by smoothly. This is also the year school got harder. My first AP class, world history, kicked my ass. I wasnt ready for something like that, but I never gave up on it and it definitely prepared me for APUSH. Sadly, I became caught up in drama this year too. I could never suggest to anyone to avoid drama, though. If you so choose to keep your eyes open, drama helps you understand people and how they vary. On the flip side it can make you very opinionated and judgemental, so beware. So in this year I became more mature in my work ethic if nothing else. I definitely was still immature in other respects.

Junior year, drama 90% school stuff 10%. This was a huge mistake. So I started the year pumped for APUSH and was determined to excel and be better than I was in WHAP, and this was a success. However, I was so pumped for school (nerd, yes) that this year was easy for me. So my focus ended up primarily on the drama and the bullshit. Sadly, I made horrible choices and hurt the feelings of people I love and care for (remember Im still immature). With me it was just one screw up after another and who knows how bad of an image I gave myself. Lucky for me, girls are more mature than guys. And I was blessed to be among those who can forgive my faults and look towards better days. I feel I learned from some of my mistakes by the end of this year, but I still wasn’t quite there yet.

Senior year, wow, what a year. This year has really tested me, personally and academically. Academically I struggled, but now as the year comes to a close, I can say “fuck yeah!” because I overcame my struggles and ended where I wanted. Personally, I am not where I want to be, but I am content with a positive outlook for my future. I was in more drama yet again this year, but hey, it is what it is. More mistakes were made and the choices…oh my. Somehow in the end yet again I was blessed, and those who were meant to be in my life are still here and all I can do is my best to make the most of it and do my part to keep close to those I love most and hold dear to my heart. Yes, many will go on to other things and many things will not turn out how I would like them to, but thats life, and as these things start to happen, I’ll have to suck it up or give it my all to keep status quo. Through this year I know I’ve matured more yet again, and the question is, “is it enough?” Well, I sure hope its enough to go further in life, but if not my “slap in the face” will come eventually.

Its been one hell of a ride these past 4 years and I just cant help but reflect back on how Ive changed, matured. I love to learn from my mistakes in hopes of becoming a better person, and I hope to continue to do so through college. High School has made me who I am today, but college will make me who I am for life. One big thing I’ve learned is to think about consequences before I act. Trust me, it works wonders. Im sure girls know that already though.
So, reflecting back, I see how my priorities changed, and how they didnt(nerd reference) and how my choices have brought me to where I am now. Its amazing to see everything by memory, now that the experiences are nearly over. Thank you Taylor, and everyone in it for these memorable years to store away until another day. The time spent through it all has been…mesmorizing.

Disclaimer: This is in no way shape or form similar to my grad speech.

If only I could take this amount of time and effort to write the damn speech…